Hey, it's been awhile.
Having baby #2, moving to a new state and all that comes with both of those transitions really took it out of me for awhile.
I use this site not only to help others through sharing my experiences, but it also lets me tap into my creative outlet. So, it's good to be back.
I could sit here and tell you everything that's been going on, but instead I feel the need to say that it's okay to take a step back once in awhile.
I wanted so badly to get on here and write about my experiences and post more recipes, but quite honestly, I haven't had the time. And quite honestly, that's made me feel really bad. I love baking and sharing recipes with you, I love reaching out to other women and mothers and telling their stories. But I just couldn't seem to find the energy to do so.
To be straightforward, I wasn't feeling like myself.
After having my first daughter, I went through a little bit of postpartum depression, especially since we moved with her from New Orleans to Miami when she was only 4 months old. I feel like I'm slightly reliving that as we just moved to Baltimore with a 4 month old. When I started not feeling like myself after baby #2, I knew I needed to reach out immediately and get the help I needed instead of waiting to hit rock bottom like I did with my first. For that, I'm proud of myself.
I also feel like I've been reacting to life instead of truly living in the moment. I know that partially comes with the newborn stage - you literally just try to survive. But then you add another kid on top of that (who's got the personality of 2 kids in one), it gets exhausting. Of course I'll clarify by saying this is all a blessing, but it can be both a blessing and hard at the same time. I'm working on enjoying the little tasks of the day instead of just going through the motions.
With all that's happened in the last few short months, I just want to say that I'm proud of myself for pushing, not giving up when things got overwhelming and uncertain and trusting in God.
So, if you're in a time of your life where you feel like you just can't get a breath, keep pushing, don't give up and trust in Him.
